I'm still so childish afterall....

Liburan cuman sisa 1 hari lagi...

Selama 1 bulan ini, aku pikir aku udah sedikit dewasa, sedikit lebih tegar.. Dan ternyata aku salah XD

Waktu aku sadar kalo liburan bakal berakhir besok, rasanya kae mao nangis ajah =w= I really, really, REALLY don't want to go back... Pengen selamanya deket sama shi papih, bisa ngobrol siang en malem, bercanda bareng2... Pengen selamanya deket sama shi kecil... Pengen deket juga sama mamih en ade2ku disini... Karena aku ga pernah tau sampe kapan mereka bakal terus ada disampingku, tapi aku tau bahwa suatu saat mereka semua bakal pergi ninggalin aku disini. Every single living things will eventually die someday... That's the fact that break my heart into pieces whenever I remember it.

But no matter what, I still have to go back... It's not fair.. Really. I'm torn apart between my own future and my own family... Kadang suka kepikiran, apakah benar masa depanku lebih berharga ketimbang waktu yang aku luangin buat keluargaku sendiri? I do know the answer, but sometimes I just want to be so childish.. so immature and deny the answer with a silly act :'p

Ga ngerti ama diri sendiri, kenapa dulu aku pengen cepet2 dewasa? Padahal jadi anak2 ajah lebih bahagia ketimbang jadi orang dewasa... *manyun*


*ngelap shi air mata yang udah ngucur* ( つ Д `) hiks....

1 bulan bareng keluarga, kado terindah buat ulang taunku yang terspesial ini... My only pray is that when I come home next time, everyone will still be here, at this precious place I call home, waiting for me.....

*tulis disini ajah deh... malu ga berani bilang ke papi, mami, ade2 en shi kecil yang ada di dunia nyata (=///=)*
For my little precious family, from the deepest part of my heart, I will love you always......
ヽ(´ー`)人(´∇`)人(`Д´)ノ